Monday, March 21, 2011
Thursday, March 03, 2011
I hate it when my mind goes blank. I’ve intended to write more often on my blog, but just can’t seem to think of anything to post about anymore. So, here’s where you come in! Please, tell me what you like to see on my blog: Pictures, articles, personal testimony, links, fashion, a little bit of it all? Just let me know!!
As an aside, the weather is still rather chilly (“nippy” as we like to say.) which is altogether disappointing. I’ve been anticipating warmer weather for some time now. I do so wish it would come! But, I remind myself: How would we know the wonder and beauty of spring if we didn’t know winter? So, I’m content to wait for it to come in God’s timing…though I wouldn’t mind if it came sooner rather then later. ;)
As for the happenings inside our house, there is a great lack of anything to speak of. I mean, besides cooking meals, schoolwork, doing laundry, cleaning, and relaxing in the evenings, our lives have been rather quiet (I’m still trying to figure out if I like that…I think I do.). St. Patrick’s Day is coming up, so Melissa put up some decorations in the archway that leads to our living room…it looks amazing! We try to decorate this area differently for every holiday that comes around. It was a sad day when we took down the pink hearts & vintage valentines that were dangling so beautifully…ah well! There is a season for everything. ☺
Speaking of which, lately, I’ve been contemplating my need to truly trust God. I know, I know, you probably hear that every day, “Trust God with this” & “Trust God with that;” but, sometimes I just stop and wonder, am I really trusting God or am I just acknowledging the fact that I should?
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God… (Philippians 4:6)
I’ve had to make some big decisions lately, and sometimes I worry (I am a total worry-wart) about whether or not I’m doing the right thing. I don’t worry all the time, mind you, but I have these moments when I just pause…and then freak out – wondering & worrying if I’m doing the right thing, or if I’ve analyzed everything enough (yes, I'm also an over-analyzer).
I didn’t really know what to do about this (I mean, I would pray about it…but not very often.) and I just figured that it would pass and soon I would be fine. But, after several months, what really bothered me, was that my worry wasn’t going away on it's own. Then, I read an article on boundless.org. I can’t remember the title of the article but the theme was trusting God with big decisions in our lives. It stopped me in my tracks. I read that we’ve got to trust God completely…and not just with big decisions, but with little, “insignificant” decisions too. We need to consciously make the decision in our hearts to say, “Lord, I’m going to trust You. Lord, you have promised me that if I pray to you in faith that my prayer will be heard.”
So many times I’ve caught myself praying and finishing off with the thought, “I’d be shocked if God actually does anything about this…” (to my utter horror, but how is one to stop their subconscious thoughts?). I tend to have this “wrong thinking” going on in the back of my mind that my little problems aren’t important enough for God. I don’t trust Him. So often, I want instant results. I wrongly believe that, since I didn't receive a sudden “light bulb” above my head, it must mean God doesn't care; so, I just give up on praying about it. This is not trusting the Lord! I'm failing to believe that He’s going to do anything in the first place. Actually, I'm expecting Him not to. That is the opposite of faith!
In Matthew 21:20-22, “So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done. And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”
When we doubt that God will help us or give us wisdom when we ask for it, we are sinning. When we doubt His promises, we are doubting the very character of God. When He promises something, He will never break His word…it is impossible for Him to do so...God IS truth (See John 14:6).
“Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.” - 1 John 5:14-15
“Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?” – Matthew 6:30
“…Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” -1 Peter 5:7
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
I still am struggling with trusting God implicitly, but I thought I would share with y’all what the Lord is teaching me so far, slowly but surely. It's a learning process, my friends.
Also, remember, not only is worrying not trusting God, but it is a way to get the gloomiest look on your face of all time. So, remember - trust God & smile. :)